A while back, when I still used tumblr I read a post by a "famous" blogger whos name I won't mention. Basically is was about how he doesn't want to post negative content, and it made me think, should I stop posting negative stuff.
On one hand not many people want to hear whiney/angsty/passive aggressive posts. I am trying to avoid things like that, because they often bring down my mood, especially when I feel like they are related to me. For example today in lit the teacher talked about how everyone was feeling overworked and that we haven't had a break, but we should use this Thanksgiving break and not do any work. I was already feeling kind of crappy because my group in Physics sucks and I have to come in after school tomorrow and work on the lab, and because I wanted to use that time to ask about my math review because I really don't understand it, but I'm probably going to get a bad grade on it. All of this plus all the homework I have to do for classes, especially physics. Plus NaNoWriMo. Ugh. I was doing okay, but having a teacher confirm that school sucks and everyone wants to leave just ruined it for me. Its the last period of the day, so I came home in this mood, and now I'm suppose to do homework, but I really don't want to.
On the other hand, as you saw above, I like to rant. I feel like I need an outlet or to put my feelings into words. I know its not popular, but my blog isn't going to be popular anyway. "Professional" blogging looks really difficult and not worth it. My blog is just word vomit and some pictures. My only hits are from spam sites.
And then I wonder is writing about this really getting rid of my negative emotions, or is it feeding them? Does writing them down and articulating give them strength? Maybe I should write about more positive things to focus on them. I'll admit to you that focusing on positive things is kind of difficult for me. Just speculating about it is a little strange. What would I write about? How great my life is? But its not. But maybe its not because I don't focus on the positive. But its not like I'm horribly depressed.
I guess I'll try to make efforts to write positive things, but I'm still going to write negative things.
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