I am a push over (and other social fails today)

     1. I was minding my own business in the library when a girl and a guy came over to me and said, "Excuse me, would you like to be in a bible study."
     Fuck no. "No," I said.
    "Do you go to church?" the girl asked.
    "No," I said.
    "Do you read the bible?"
    "No"
    "Do you believe in god?"
    "No"
    "Well I think you should just come to the bible study to hear our message," the guy said.
    God damn. Can't they get a message? Are they trying to sell a car? I felt really bad about saying "no" so much that I finally relented and said "sure".
    The girl asked me for my number and when would be a good time for me. Only long after I realized that I should have lied. I don't even have my number memorized and I looked it up just to tell her. Man I hate myself. The closest thing I got to a lie was telling her that I had free time tomorrow at 3 when in reality my class gets out at 2:55. Wow I'm a bad ass. I haven't decided if I'm just going to ignore her calls or answer and back out. I think I may be more assertive over the phone.

    2. For my business class we have to interview 10 people a week about the product we're trying to sell. This is the hardest class of all time. I have no idea how to just go up to people and talk to them. Especially when they're walking. I don't know how to casually jump in front of someone. I also had a plan to record them with my phone which I then decided was childish and embarrassing. I sat/stood in front of one of the buildings, trying to will myself to stop someone. Annoyingly enough as I was walking back to my dorm I saw one of the guys in my group and he stopped someone to talk to, and it worked! I wish I had seen the whole thing. When I got to my room I had a small sad time break down. I just felt so shitty about myself.
    I could use that one place as an excuse, but then I was waiting at the bus stop and I had a great opportunity to talk to some people and completely wasted it and chickened out. I'm not sure if I will get the interviews done at all because it doesn't hurt my group's grade, just mine.

   3. There was a party hosted by the multi-cultural clubs but I decided I had had enough social torture for the day.